Self-Actualization

(set:$hasSuperEgo to false) (set:$hasEgo to false) =><= ''WARNING'' { (live: 3s)[ (stop:) This game touches on serious topics and uses some explicit language. If you experience any uncomftorable feelings or negative thoughts, please stop and take a break. Listen to some music, call a friend, or play a different game. All scenario's and people in this game are works of fiction. They are not meant to depict real people or any scenario. Any likeness or similarities to real life are not on purpose, and are accidental. ] }{ (live: 10s)[ (stop:) [[Actualize]] ] }

=><= Maslow tells us that self-actualization is doing all that one is capable of. It is one's personal growth and discovery, it is the state of constant becoming we all go through. { (live: 5s)[ (stop:) Unfortunately, not everyone reaches their full potential. Instead, we may become damaged, broken, and beaten. From there, we build and fix ourselves for the next time this happens. ] } { (live: 8s)[ (stop:) [[Think]] ] }

==> "**Why are //you// here?**" <== { (live: 1s)[ (stop:) //Silence// ] } ==> { (live: 4s)[ (stop:) "**I'll tell you why, because you put yourself here. No one else, no grand scheme with strings being pulled. It's //all// on you.**" ] } <== { (live: 9s)[ (stop:) //More Silence// ] } ==> { (live: 12s)[ (stop:) "**Let me guess, still haven't looked around yet?**" ] } <== { (live: 15s)[ (stop:) [[Look Around]] [[Remain Silent]] ] }

God, I can't tell if I already had a headache or if it's this voice that caused it. He does bring up a good point though. I should be looking around, I have no idea how I got here. Matter of fact... { (live: 8s)[ (stop:) Who am I? ] }{ (live: 12s)[ (stop:) Better yet, what is this place? The room I was in, it's no longer a room that the regular senses can understand. ] } { (live: 17s)[ (stop:) There are walls, but at the same time there are no walls. Walking past the hole behind me, the breathe I once clamored for is now shakey and labored. No sun, no lights but no darkness. Staring, mocking, and ignoring my presence is a void, in fact, the place in which I am is now empty and hollow. Strings of buildings, houses and rouble float around in this archaic emptiness. [[Ask Where You Are]] [[Ask Who You Are]] ] }

==> "**That's it? No sense of grandeur? Are you even paying attention? Hello?**" { (live: 1s)[ (stop:) "You there -------?" ] } <== { (live: 5s)[ (stop:) Well, he's not exactly going away, and I think this voice might be causing this headache. ] } ==> { (live: 7s)[ (stop:) "**Yeah, I'm not going anywhere, and no, I'm //technically not// the reason for the headache. You did that on your own**." ] } <== { (live: 12s)[ (stop:) Great, so he can not only speak in my head, but read my thoughts. I guess I better start looking around. [[Explore the House]] [[Go to the front yard]] [[Jump]] ] }

==> "**Well, I think you'll know where you are better than me by the end, after all, we're inside of what makes //you//, you.**" =><= { (live: 7s)[ (stop:) Inside of... ] } { (live: 10s)[ (stop:) Me... This, this is... ] } { (live: 14s)[ (stop:) I can't explain it, but, he's not wrong... ] } { (live: 17s)[ (stop:) Why am **//I//** in pieces? I need to... [[Explore the House]] [[Go to the front yard]] [[Jump]] ] }

==> "**Who am I? Or who you are? My dear friend, I'm sure you'll know that better than I could at the end of this. Plus, why would I give you the answers to the test?**" <== { (live: 6s)[ (stop:) Test? End of //this//? ==> "**Sorry, all I'm trying to say is, maybe you should stop being such a dim witted idiot and use your brain for once. Think a little, not that you do that a lot.**" ] } <== { (live: 10s)[ (stop:) Hurtful... but he's not wrong. At least about not thinking, as for the fact that I'll know who I am or who he his, I doubt that. For now, I guess I better explore this place. ] } =><= { (live: 13s)[ (stop:) [[Explore the House]] [[Go to the front yard]] [[Jump]] ] }

<== { (live: 1s)[ (stop:) There is no place, like a run down, abandoned house to call home. It's not pretty, but, walking back through the hole of the wall you came out of brings you to a new room... There's a person laying past the table in the middle of this unkept room now. Is that? ] } { (live: 12s)[ (stop:) "//M//-Mom.." It's, I think it is, it has to be my Mom. God. //OH GOD// ] } ==> { (live: 17s)[ (stop:) "Now ------, is that anyway to greet your Mother? Come, sit down, it's been //ages// since we've talked. I even got you you're favorite thing to eat! //My wallet//" ] } =><= { (live: 24s)[ (stop:) Wallet? Oh. I think I remember. Why did I lie to her about that? She can't actually be here, I was there for her funeral at the very least. [[Breathe, take a seat]] [[Run]] ] }

=><= Weird. You know you've //been here//, but also //don't// know you've been here. { (live: 5s)[ (stop:) It's a nice little yard, I don't know how long it's been since the yard has seen any rain, but it all seems very dead. It's green, but with each step I take, the plants wither, decay, and the ash rises to the air. It's odd, there seems to be smoke coming from the tree. [[Make your way to the tree at the edge of the Island]] ] }

=><= { (live: 1s)[ (stop:) Jump. ] } { (live: 2s)[ (stop:) Jump. ] } { (live: 3s)[ (stop:) Jump. ] } <== { (live: 5s)[ (stop:) I've jumped, not now, but I've... I jumped. ] } =><= { (live: 7s)[ (stop:) As a kid I must have jumped, but, I know I //jump jumped.// ] } =><= { (live: 11s)[ (stop:) //You're stomach begins to do knots, twisting and turning at the thought of jumping off the island into the void below.// ] } <== { (live: 13s)[ (stop:) [[Still jump]] ] } { (live: 19s)[ (stop:) or [[Explore the House]] [[Go to the front yard]] ] }

=><= //This is it...// ==> { (live: 3s)[ (stop:) "Listen, I know what you're thinking there. You're standing on that ledge, looking into the emptiness. You don't know that it's empty, you just don't know what's down there. This isn't going to fix anything. All you gotta do is step away, fix yourself, and walk away." ] } =><= { (live: 17s)[ (stop:) ... [[It's not that I'm afraid, I just know I'm a creature of habit, I'm sorry.]] ] } { (live: 22s)[ (stop:) Or, listen to the voice. [[Explore the House]] [[Go to the front yard]] }

<== { (live: 4s)[ (stop:) //It's dark// ] } =><= { (live: 6s)[ (stop:) //So...? Is this it? I've been **here** for a while.// ] } ==> { (live: 10s)[ (stop:) //It's funny, I feel like I've been here before. Not just here, but also at this very spot, right here waiting.// ] } <== { (live: 15s)[ (stop:) //It's cold now, and, I never...// ] } =><= { (live: 20s)[ (stop:) //I never learned who I was, How I got here, and who that voice was.// ] } ==> { (live: 22s)[ (stop:) //**I never fixed my mind.**// ] } =><= { (live: 25s)[ (stop:) //If I could go back, back in time, would I be stuck in a fate to simply end up here each time?// (if: $hasSuperEgo is true)[ Why was she here?] (else:)[//I still need to figure... is anyone else here besides her?//] (if: $hasEgo is true)[Maybe I should be nice to crazy people? (else:)[//I still need to know, is anyone else here besides him?//] [[Actualize]] ] }

=><= { (live: 2s)[ (stop:) It can't be real. It's all in the head. I just need to take a seat, and talk. After all, it's been what, 9 years since I've seen her? ] } { (live: 8s)[ (stop:) The metal chair is cool and damp, it takes everything not to shake. ] } ==> { (live: 12s)[ (stop:) "So, you've looked better haven't you dear. Oh, I'm sorry, I'm sorry //you're still a disappointment//." ] } =><= { (live: 15s)[ (stop:) I... Mom... ] } ==> { (live: 18s)[ (stop:) "Oh, don't make that face, you know I'm right. Where did all that money go anyway?" ] } =><= { (live: 22s)[ (stop:) [[Tell the Truth]] [[Lie]] ] }

=><= Run, I have to run. She's not real, none of this is real. It just can't be. ==> { (live: 2s)[ (stop:) "Dear, if you leave this room, //I leave//. ] } { (live: 4s)[ (stop:) [[Jump out the Room->It's not that I'm afraid, I just know I'm a creature of habit, I'm sorry.]] [[Breathe, take a seat]] ] }

(set: $hasSuperEgo to true) <== { (live: 1s)[ (stop:) "Mom." Why is this hard? "Mom..." So, this is the truth. I don't, I don't remember any of this. Why can't I. My own mother, and I can hardly remember her myself, what am I? "Mom, I don't know you. We didn't, I don't know, we didn't, like each other? I mean we loved each other, you love family, but, like each other? I don't know, what happened?" ] } =><= { (live: 15s)[ (stop:) It **hurts**. It's not a sharp pain, it's a empty, bone chilling numbness //echoing// in the hole of my heart. Am I less, just by not knowing my Mother? The chair is no longer cold. No, the chair is giving me heat at this point. Ice cold, small breathes form icicles piercing the tension of the room. ] } ==> { (live: 25s)[ (stop:) I can see her, laying in her bed, and she smiles. "Dear, where do I began?" ] } <== { (live: 28s)[ (stop:) [[What was I like]] [[Why Are You Here]] [[Am I Redeemable]] ] }

==> "Really? You're going to lie to me even //HERE//? You see your own ID in disarray, and //STILL// choose to lie to me?" { (Live: 7s)[ (stop:) "I am not MOM you failure. I am the reflection of you, I am dying.. And yet you //still// lie to yourself." ] } { (live: 14s)[ (stop:) "Now, I'm sorry, but I made you conscious of the unconscious. No mind can know what it shouldn't, so, I guess this is it. At least you saved that girl in the end. You weren't //entirely// terrible. Shame you couldn't have fixed this terrible place you call yourself." ] } =><= { (live: 22s)[ (stop:) [[Forget->It's not that I'm afraid, I just know I'm a creature of habit, I'm sorry.]] ] }

==> "Hmm." =><= She was silent for a long time. I could see her eyes strain, as if to force her brain to work a little harder to think about how her own son was. ==> { (live: 8s)[ (stop:) "Do you remember when, well, no probably not. Before High School, you were bright. You kept to yourself, you got A's and B's in your classes. You never fought, never argued." ] } { (live: 19s)[ (stop:) "Something happened however. I don't know if it was bullies, or the divorce, but you weren't my smiling little guy anymore. Part of you, part of you died, part of you was infected and spread through you like a virus. I started to smell smoke on your clothes when I'd wash them." ] } { (live: 28s)[ (stop:) "I tried talking to you about it, it didn't go over well. You started screaming, claiming you were gonna punch holes in all the walls, and blow a hole right through the front door. I was scared. I was scared of how I failed you, how I let you become this monster son..." [["That's Right, the Story"]] ] }

==> "Not to be rude, but do you really think I want to be with you in the chaos you made? I'm not even here ------, you think you'd figure'd it out by now. Sorry, that's rude of me to say, you weren't the brightest, but you did always make me smile. Did make me smile." { (live: 8s)[ (stop:) "There's no structure to this madness dear. I wonder what all you must've done to that head of yours before you ended up here... You don't care though, I can see it, never did and never will." ] } =><= { (live: 15s)[ (stop:) There's a pause, and I could have sworn a tear glimmered in the blinding darkness that encompassed us as we sat face to face. How wonderful she looks in her white dress right now. ] } ==> { (live: 22s)[ (stop:) "I guess, you probably put me here just to leave me again. Maybe steal from me again? Maybe not steal my money, not break my heart, but maybe steal some knowledge? If that's the case, I'm sorry. You brought this on yourself, and left when I needed you. Look where you put me. I love you son, but I guess you still have some growing up to do. Till we meet again, I love you, I wish you'd visit more." ] } { (live: 35s)[ (stop:) "Good-bye, ---t-n." [[Go to the front yard]] [[Ponder by the Edge->Still jump]] (if: $hasEgo is true)[ It's time to solve this. [[Venture in]]] ] }

==> { (live: 1s)[ (stop:) "Dear, if we were not redeemable, we would cease to be human. We can change, we can hate our selves and not change, but we can always change dear." ] } =><= { (live: 7s)[ (stop:) I want to change, but, I know I've done something bad. I did something to my Mom. ] } <== { (live: 11s)[ (stop:) "Hey, Mom, what aren't you telling me? I did something bad didn't I? I can't exactly remember it and that makes me feel worse, but, Mom, //oh god//, Mom I can feel it." ] } ==> { (live: 16s)[ (stop:) "Dear, oh dear. You really don't remember a thing do you." ] } =><= { (live: 19s)[ (stop:) She rustles the white sheets on top of her as she makes her bed position it self more like a chair. There's a light cackle like cough that gets extinguished into her leathered hands. ] } ==> { (live: 26s)[ (stop:) "You killed me, emotionally, mentally, and financially. You may not remember it, but trust me, the last thing I would do to you right now is lie to you in this condition. In both of our conditions." "It started off with taking spare coins from my purse, I pretended not to notice and put more money in my purse for you. I thought of it as your little piggy bank... [[But you Never Saved Money]]" ] }

==> "That's right, made me sad to see. Made me even more sad when I finally made the connection of why you we're gone all the time, always out past midnight..." { (live: 7s)[ (stop:) "So, did the drugs ever ease the pain? I'm not stupid son. I know you've always had a lot going on up in your head... I just, I hate the fact I never tried to help you before it was to late. That's not fair though. I don't feel bad, because **I** did put in the effort to be there for you. ] } =><= { (live: 18s)[ (stop:) I... Did drugs? Well... Maybe this is just a really bad- ] } ==> { (live: 22s)[ (stop:) "Don't you even finish thinking that this is a weird drug trip. We're here, or at least you're here in the clearest state of being there is. You're here, alone." [[Why Are You Here]] [[Go to the front yard]] (if: $hasEgo is true)[ It's time to solve this. [[Venture in]]] ] }

=><= I was, I was like this? I was this horrible person before high school even started? How, how could I do that. Worse yet, how could I not remember that? ==> { (live: 8s)[ (stop:) "It was when you were 16, almost 17. You'd visit from your dad's from time to time. This time however, you were kicked out. I don't know why still, you were always so... Closed. Like, no matter what, you had to have these walls up so you didn't have to deal with anything. Maybe it helped with the stress, maybe it helped with the psoriasis. All I know is that it made knowing your mood or emotions difficult." ] } <== { (live: 24s)[ (stop:) She's in pain. Not just emotionally, I can see her more clearly now. I'm suprised she can still talk given how she looks right now. "Mom, you don't have to continue if don't want to. I know I asked, and I'd like to know, but, I don't want you to hurt yourself with to much talking." ] } ==> { (live: 33s)[ (stop:) "I'll continue, //just// as I've always done."" [[You Were Stressful]] ] }

==> { (live: 1s)[ (stop:) "You were always so, so stressful. Even more so when you came to live with us for a little bit. It didn't last long." ] } =><= { (live: 7s)[ (stop:) "You were upset... So very upset, and we could all see it. We could feel it. We could hear the anger, sadness, and terror festering in your heart. Finally, it all culminated into this one thing..." ] } <== { (live: 16s)[ (stop:) She pauses yet again. She is obviously pained, but you know this means a lot, for both of you. ] } ==> { (live: 22s)[ (stop:) "You called me before school ended. You told me you were going to spend a few nights at a friends house out of the blue. It scared me, it didn't feel right. I tried to get you to come home and get clothes before you went, or get something to eat, but you didn't. You hung up." ] } =><= { (live: 32s)[ (stop:) "I was worried, but I still trusted you, of course I did. You were my son. A day goes by, and we already know it's to late. No matter how many missing person posters I put up, know matter how many times I tried to call you, to message you, it didn't matter." ] } <== { (live: 44s)[ (stop:) "Two" ] } ==> { (live: 46s)[ (stop:) "Whole" ] } ==> { (live: 48s)[ (stop:) "Weeks. That's how long the police look for a missing kid before it gets put on hold..." <== [[Lay Next to Your Mother]] [[I did the Right Thing]] ] }

{ (live: 1s)[ (stop:) //What did I become before the me I am now// ] } =><= { (live: 5s)[ (stop:) //Is the me that I am now, the actual me?// ] } ==> { (live: 9s)[ (stop:) "Son, come here, lay next to me, don't worry anymore. Let me have this one last moment." ] } =><= { (live: 14s)[ (stop:) As I climb onto the bed next to my mom, I feel the sheets wrapping themselves around me. Along with the sheets, I can feel my own mother's hand comb through my hair. I don't know if I cried as the person I was before, but who ever I am now, they cry as they recieve the love and affection they denied themselves for so long. ] } { (live: 24s)[ (stop:) //As I close my eye's, I hope when and if I open my eyes again, I'm the person I am right now.// [[Sleep->It's not that I'm afraid, I just know I'm a creature of habit, I'm sorry.]] (if: $hasEgo is true)[ It's time to solve this. [[Venture in]]] ] }

==> //Silence// "Hmm, well, I guess we all can try to justify the terrible things we all do. I'm sure you didn't mean to break my heart. You killed me that day. Not physically, but you killed me. Long as you can recognize that, you can go. Don't doubt what you did, but don't deny what you did. Believe in your actions and believe in them. Now go." =><= { (live: 13s)[ (stop:) //So, believe in me huh. After all that, she still wants me to be, confident? I wish I had more time to ask questions, but as I sit thinking the room melts, from base to the cieling dripping in a down to up pattern. It was like a vacuum cleaner was placed over my head. In the course of 4 seconds, the room was back to being both a room and no room, was barren, and hollow yet again.// ] } { (live: 25s)[ (stop:) I never got to say goodbye. [[Go to the front yard]] (if: $hasEgo is true)[ It's time to solve this. [[Venture in]]] ] }

==> "**Hey friend, it's the voice from earlier! Listen, I don't think you should go to the tree, just giving my two cents. I don't think you'd like what you see.**" =><= [[Continue to the tree]] [[Ask why]]

<== Soon as I was arms reach from the tree I heard, { (live: 4s)[ (stop:) ==> "//You got to be shitting me.//" =><= That voice, it's a new one. I swear it's like the first one, but, it's, gravely. Like a soft person forced to develop a grizzled voice. //[["They seriously brought you here"]]// ] }

==> "**See, listen. I've been kind to you, I greeted you and everything. Welcomed you with open arms ya know? I'm the nice one, I like you. You may not be the best person, but you're one of my ilk.**" { (live: 8s)[ (stop:) "**As I said, I'm the nice one. The one you're heading to, he doesn't like anybody. He won't like you, he definitely won't like himself...** ] } { (live: 14s)[ (stop:) [[Carry on to the Tree]] [[Give up]] ] }

=><= //Oh...// <== { (live: 2s)[ (stop:) <== //Wow...// ] } ==> { (live: 4s)[ (stop:) ==> //I see now, Mom. I see me. Not the me you thought me to be, the me I thought I was myself...// ] } =><= { (live: 8s)[ (stop:) //I miss you, the popcorn for dinner night's... Before all the big fights.// ] } <== { (live: 14s)[ (stop:) //It makes sense you were there to fix me in the end. You were always there in the begining. You were there when I ended the begining. How you see me, my own hubris checker.// ] } =><= { (live: 22s)[ (stop:) //If I fixed my own ----- ---, then that means next is, my ---...// ] } ==> { (live: 27s)[ (stop:) //How long did I let myself devolve into those two minds in one...// [[Talk To The ---]] ] }

=><= Wow, so there are two of the voices... Nice. ==> { (live: 5s)[ (stop:) "//You got to be shitting me.//" That voice, it's a new one. I swear it's like the first one, but, it's, gravely. Like a soft person forced to develop a grizzled voice. //[["They seriously brought you here"]]// ] }

(set: $hasEgo to true) =><= //Yeah, I guess it makes sense. I guess I would give up when it comes to these situations. It's not like I'm doing anything wrong. I'm... I'm just doing what I would do...// ==> { (live: 7s)[ (stop:) //I'm gonna go to the porch for a little bit... It looks like it has a nice wooden swing.// ] } =><= { (live: 10s)[ (stop:) //Just gonna close my eyes. My head still hurts. I can't really make out anything in this weird place.// ] } <== { (live: 15s)[ (stop:) "**Hey**! What are you doing here?" [[Dream]] ] }

=><= //She's not paying attention.// ==> { (live: 4s)[ (stop:) //She looks **beautiful** standing there// ] } <== { (live: 6s)[ (stop:) //She's just standing on the **ledge** of the building...// ] } =><= { (live: 10s)[ (stop:) //Is she, is she doing what **I** was going to do?// ] } ==> { (live: 15s)[ (stop:) //I... I **can't** let her **jump**.// ] } <== { (live: 17s)[ (stop:) //My feet are moving before I tell them too// ] } =><= { (live: 21s)[ (stop:) //Is this **fair** of me to do?// ] } ==> { (live: 26s)[ (stop:) //She came to this decision on her own didn't she?// ] } <== { (live: 32s)[ (stop:) //Is it **fair** to stop her from doing what **I** wanted to do?// ] } =><= { (live: 37s)[ (stop:) //She must **think** I'm an asshole...// ] } ==> { (live: 40s)[ (stop:) //What kind of suicidal person **saves** a person from **jumping**...// ] } <== { (live: 45s)[ (stop:) //And trips over the side of the roof afterwards...// ] } =><= { (live: 48s)[ (stop:) //... **Actually**..// ] } ==> { (live: 51s)[ (stop:) //I've been **falling** for a while, haven't I?// ] } { (live: 55s)[ (stop:) //[[Dive into your ID->Think]]// ] }

=><= //Moving further around the tree, I finally got to see who owned the voice, and I really wish I didn't. The man was rough, not just rough, but rough as in grinding chalk on a blackboard while grinding your teeth and slamming a finger in a door, rough.// ==> { (live: 8s)[ (stop:) "//You want some?//" //as he extends a cigaratte.// <== "Oh uhm, ah no. No thank you I don't smoke." ] } { (live: 14s)[ (stop:) ==> "//Yeah you **fucking** do jackass. Are you already **lying** to me, huh? Well it's not gonna work buddy, nah fuckin nah. Now sit down or fucking go.//" [[Sit Down]] [[Leave->Give up]] ] }

=><= //It's obvious this dude is on the edge. Either he's crazy, or he's had a lot of bad things happen to him. A seat is quickly taken, you don't want this person to lose it.// { (live: 6s)[ (stop:) ==> "//I wouldn't trust the other voice. It keeps trying to get along with me man. Voices only do that when they want to stab you man. Don't fuckin trust him.//" ] } { (live: 12s)[ (stop:) "//You didn't know that before so I'll let you off the hook. I still don't want you here. You're gonna fuck up everything man. //**//EVERYTHING//**! [[Ask What You Would Ruin]] [[Tell him to Relax]] [[Laugh]] ] }

(set: $hasEgo to true) ==> "//You're a fool. I kinda like that. See, see, and see. See, see, and see. You would ruin everything you see.//" <== { (live: 6s)[ (stop:) "Wouldn't that be a good thing? Everything is crazy here, it's archaic, dark, and crazy. Wouldn't it be good to ruin all of this?" ] } ==> { (live: 12s)[ (stop:) "//When I said you were a fool, I didn't know you were that much of a fool man. These kinds of places are never organized man. They get **messy**, they get **crazy**, they are never easy to be in. Nobodies is.//" ] } { (live: 18s)[ (stop:) "//Shit, I've just said to much didn't I. You did that on purpose didn't you. I won't hold it against you. I just can't talk.//" I guess I only have the house to explore. [[Explore the House]] (if: $hasSuperEgo is true)[ "//I think it's time you go jump. All you wanna know is down... Ahaha almost did it again.//" [[Venture in]]] ] }

(set: $hasEgo to true) ==> "//OH YOU THINK THIS I SHOULD JUST ////**RELAX**//? =><= { (live: 2s)[ (stop:) "//YOU WANNA RELAX FOR BOTH OF US?//" ] } <== { (live: 4s)[ (stop:) "//Everything, everything here. It. Is. Mine. I. Own. It. All. You. Won't. Tell. Me. What. To. Do.//" ] } =><= { (live: 8s)[ (stop:) "//I will kill you. I've killed you and me before. I will kill us again.//" ] } ==> { (live: 12s)[ (stop:) "//Anybody who tried to boss me around, is against me.//" [[Feel Yourself being Pushed off the Island->It's not that I'm afraid, I just know I'm a creature of habit, I'm sorry.]] ] }

(set: $hasEgo to true) ==> "//OH YOU THINK THIS IS FUNNY//? =><= { (live: 2s)[ (stop:) "//YOU WANNA LAUGH?//" ] } <== { (live: 4s)[ (stop:) "//Everything, everything here. It. Is. Mine. I. Own. It. All. You. Won't. Laugh. At. Me.//" ] } =><= { (live: 8s)[ (stop:) "//I will kill you. I've killed you and me before. I will kill us again.//" ] } ==> { (live: 12s)[ (stop:) "//Anybody who laughs, is laughing at me.//" [[Feel Yourself being Pushed off the Island->It's not that I'm afraid, I just know I'm a creature of habit, I'm sorry.]] ] }

==> "**Well**," "//Glad you could join us here//" =><= { (live: 5s)[ (stop:) "//We was kinda gettin scared ya might not make it.//" "**Yes, oddly enough we finally agreed on that.**" ] } <== { (live: 10s)[ (stop:) "//Hey man, you are a pretty fuckin crummy guy ya know?//" "**Hey friend, don't be so hard on yourself**" "//At least you did something noble to end up here.//" ] } =><= { (live: 18s)[ (stop:) "//**When you get angry... We don't get along well. I mean, yeah brothers fight and all that, but, I wish I could at least spend time with him, even when he hates everybody**//" ] } ==> { (live: 24s)[ (stop:) "//**When we're apart, we're broken. Just keep us taped up, and keep on keeping on pal. Sometimes I kinda trust this dude here. I meant what I said though, these places ain't ever clean.**// ] } =><= { (live: 32s)[ (stop:) "//**Well, adiós amor dolido**//" [[Continue the Descent]] ] }

=><= //To be human is to suffer. I forget who said that.// { (live: 4s)[ (stop:) ==> //Looking into this hole, I can't make out what it is.// ] } { (live: 9s)[ (stop:) <== //If I wait here, nothing will change.// ] } { (live: 14s)[ (stop:) =><= //The longer I wait...// ] } { (live: 17s)[ (stop:) ==> //The less I feel.// ] } { (live: 20s)[ (stop:) <== //It's time to know...// ] } =><= { (live: 23s)[ (stop:) What is in this hole. [[Dive into yourself]] ] }

=><= //If I was a clever man, I'd say this fall felt like a descent into madness. As I've got more of my memories, I can appreciate that joke now.// <== { (live: 7s)[ (stop:) //Just like that. I was back in the house. This time, no doors, no windows, I couldn't see outside. I was stuck in here.// ] } ==> { (live: 15s)[ (stop:) "See you've made your peace have we?" ] } <== { (live: 18s)[ (stop:) "You're... are you just, me?" ] } ==> { (live: 22s)[ (stop:) "In a way, I'm the you I need me to be. You wanted to make peace with yourself, fix the holes of your soul, heart and mind. So, here we are, doing just that." "Did it work?" ] } =><= { (live: 30s)[ (stop:) [[Yeah...]] [[No..]] ] }

<== { (live: 0s)[ (stop:) "I don't feel so, heavy anymore. Like, even though I'm falling, I could spread my arms and fly away now. I know finding peace won't change what I did in my life... but... ] } ==> { (live: 9s)[ (stop:) "But you're able to move on with less remorse. The remorse will always be there mind you, but, we won't feel it like we would have. At least we had a positive impact on that girl above us." ] } =><= { (live: 17s)[ (stop:) //I'm starting to see why people say we shouldn't become aware of the unconscious. It's not that I hurt, not anymore at least. I feel, blank.// ] } <== { (live: 28s)[ (stop:) "So, can you tell me something. Since I saw Mom, I know she was just part of my psyche, but will I see her after all this? What is after this? ] } ==> { (live: 36s)[ (stop:) "Well, I only know as much as you do. I was hoping you would tell me something reassuring. I guess only time will tell. I just hope that if there is an afterlife..." ] } <== { (live: 46s)[ (stop:) "Yeah, I know. I hope I don't see her too. Not where we're going...' ] } =><= { (live: 50s)[ (stop:) ~~**[[splat]]**~~ ] }

==> { (live: 0s)[ (stop:) "I see..." ] } =><= { (live: 3s)[ (stop:) "Do we really hate ourselves that much?" ] } <== { (live: 8s)[ (stop:) "I think I, I think we do." ] } ==> { (live: 14s)[ (stop:) "Very well. It was nice seeing Mom one last time." ] } <== { (live: 19s)[ (stop:) "Yeah, thank you for that. I actually wrote her a letter before I remembered I couldn't send it to her". ] } =><= { (live: 27s)[ (stop:) "Yes, we both know that. Whole reason you came to this building." ] } ==> { (live: 33s)[ (stop:) "We both know we aren't getting out of this right? We can just be happy we saved the girl." ] } <== { (live: 40s)[ (stop:) "I know, it feels like I've been falling forever. The wind has been nice though." ] } =><= { (live: 46s)[ (stop:) **~~[[splat]]~~** ] }

=><= Unfortunately, death is something we can't change or fix. We have but only 1 life to enjoy and live. Sometimes we get angry, sad, depressed, even nihilistic. We have but only 1 family, and it's important to make sure you fix any problems you have with them before it's to late. We all mess up, we all fall down, we all get sad. It's not easy, but it's important to get back up, dust ourselves off, and fix what we broke. Thank you for playing my first game, I had a blast making it for GGJ. I hope to come back to this game when I learn how to do graphics, and make it an actual interactive 3d game, but, until then, keep on keepin on. **THE END** ==> -D.S.